Always in the childhood, the Civics teacher reiterated, year over year, the definition of a Human Being, viz. A Social Animal. We recited, mugged and forgot it. I reckon, the teacher was right, atleast in this case.
I joined NTPC Limited on August 8, 2005. My first venture outside my home. Never had a dearth of love and affection from the family and the friends. Everyone caressed. I, however, never looked over my shoulder, to see who all are in the backdrop to assure I was happy. Then came the bolt from blue; NTPC. I had to pack my bags and get going. The initial happiness of being selected in such a giant seemed miniscule in front of Aai's face. She was not happy leaving me out of her brood. I could see that. Explicitly she didn't say it, didn't express it. It just got expressed; from the wet corner of her eyes.
I joined. Honestly, for the first time I felt alone; stranded in the midst of people who cared about one thing- themselves. It was a scorching welcome. I had expected just a warm one. The HR need not be blamed. The culprit was within me. I was desparate in the quest of someone, who would parent me. I knew very well that I have to stride alone, still the mind was adamant. Mind; a lethal weapon.
As the time moved sluggishly, I made new relations at a commensurate speed. I don't know whether I was reluctant or the others. Nevertheless, I started feeling safer. The network grew. Hostelmates became Colleagues. Then tranformed from Colleagues to Friends. Some even mutated from Friends to Buddies. It took nine months for all this to happen.
Nine months; interesting coincidence. A women wombs a baby for this period, after consummating. On the day when the baby ventures into the world, she bears the labor pains. An epoch, witnessing painful ending of a sacrosanct relationship and at the same time, dawn of a new relationship revered as, Mother. Similarly, at the culmination of our nine months training, when all the buddies left away, it pained me.
I felt alone.
The best part is, the other relationship must have begun.
I am discovering it.
I joined NTPC Limited on August 8, 2005. My first venture outside my home. Never had a dearth of love and affection from the family and the friends. Everyone caressed. I, however, never looked over my shoulder, to see who all are in the backdrop to assure I was happy. Then came the bolt from blue; NTPC. I had to pack my bags and get going. The initial happiness of being selected in such a giant seemed miniscule in front of Aai's face. She was not happy leaving me out of her brood. I could see that. Explicitly she didn't say it, didn't express it. It just got expressed; from the wet corner of her eyes.
I joined. Honestly, for the first time I felt alone; stranded in the midst of people who cared about one thing- themselves. It was a scorching welcome. I had expected just a warm one. The HR need not be blamed. The culprit was within me. I was desparate in the quest of someone, who would parent me. I knew very well that I have to stride alone, still the mind was adamant. Mind; a lethal weapon.
As the time moved sluggishly, I made new relations at a commensurate speed. I don't know whether I was reluctant or the others. Nevertheless, I started feeling safer. The network grew. Hostelmates became Colleagues. Then tranformed from Colleagues to Friends. Some even mutated from Friends to Buddies. It took nine months for all this to happen.
Nine months; interesting coincidence. A women wombs a baby for this period, after consummating. On the day when the baby ventures into the world, she bears the labor pains. An epoch, witnessing painful ending of a sacrosanct relationship and at the same time, dawn of a new relationship revered as, Mother. Similarly, at the culmination of our nine months training, when all the buddies left away, it pained me.
I felt alone.
The best part is, the other relationship must have begun.
I am discovering it.
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